Happier Today.....

I'm really feeling this templete right now so it'll stay.

God I felt like hell last night. I can't belive what I was feeling and what I wanted to do to myself it was extremely wiered.

I still don't want to specify what was the reason for what caused me getting so upset because it is regarding the media and Michael Jackson and it deserves no attention anywhere.

But I feel so much better today and I'm not even worrying about it anymore right now. PMS sucks ass.

Why do I suddenly feel the need to feel close to God?? I know that sounds so strange but I feel that I want to find salvation and spirituality and believe in the things I used to when I was younger. Maybe this whole athiest thing was just a phase?? I still am skeptical that God does exist and maybe I need more time to think about it.

There are things I seriously need to do this year because I still feel like I'm 15 and I don't want to be treated like I'm still 15.

Here are a few things:

*learn to drive(which I still haven't done yet)
*re-paint my room(still the same damn color it was 5 years ago)
*read more books(I'm still trying to read that book I mentioned last night it's called "Gathering Blue")

That's all I can think of right now I might update.

Peace&Love, SL