Horrible Afternoon....
This afternoon was so horrible for so many reasons it's ridiculus. I don't know what else could possibly happen to make this day any worse. First off, I Mom called me while she was at work at noon asking me if I was going to go to nie-nie's house because there was going to be this big early Thanksgiving dinner thing. I felt like eating there so I said yes and I had to be ready to go by 2 o' clock. Well, dumbass me lost track of time and I started getting ready too late so I couldn't take a shower and wear my hair down. I also couldn't find a top to wear under a shirt because it's cold as hell outside, and I ended up wasting like 10 minutes looking for it. I was not ready by the time mom got home, leaving me rushing to get as presentable as possible. At least I was able to find something to wear that was clean and I got to wash my face and put on moisturizer. Makeup had to be put on in the car, which that didn't turn out as good as I thought.
The dinner at nie-nie's was good......at first. There were so many people there(most of them I had only met a few times in my life) and the minute we walked in the door everyone was about to say Grace. Kinda awkward. I ate but not alot. It's not like the food was horrible but not exactly what I was in the mood for. I feel guilty saying this because it's Thanksgiving, therefore I should be thankful. It was a little hard for me trying to feel comfortable with everyone else in the house because again, I barely know any of these people and they don't know me. I couldn't wait to leave, to be honest. I also needed to get in some time of driving since I hadn't in a week, so I asked mom if we could do that when we left and she said yes. God, how I wish I could turn back time and not have asked her. Mom was extremely short of patience today from having to work this morning and I should have noticed it earlier. We went driving around the back roads in nie-nie's niehborhood and it was truly an extremely irritating experiance. Mom had no patience with me whatsoever and would not stop bitching about what I was doing, which IMO, only made things worse. Yes, I often get too close to the side of the road because I don't think I should be driving in the middle of it. Mom kept panicking and trying to steer the wheel herself from the pasenger's seat over and over and OVER again and by the time we were finished, I was seething. So, we go back to nie-nie's house to pick up Zach and Mom tells me to go get him while she waits in the car, only making me more irritated. I go in and find Zach lying on Chris's bed watching some shit football game. I tell him that we need to go and he says hold on a minute I wanna watch this and I get pissed off and YELL at him that we need to go and mom is waiting outside. It never crossed my mind that there were alot of people in the living room and the kitchen who could hear everything I was saying. I made the biggest ass of myself and I should have apologized but I didn't. I just stormed out of the house without saying anything.
I go back to the car and Zach starts talking shit about me like he always does just for laughs and that makes me even MORE upset and as soon as we take off in the car, I brake down and start crying and I went striaght to my room when we got to the house and cried until mom told me to come out because she had told dad what Zach was doing in the car. Dad hugged me and asked me if Zach teasing me was the reason I was crying and I said no. I didn't want to talk about it. I just wanted to lock myself in my room and listen to Marah Carey until I felt better. Mom told dad that I was also upset because of what happened when I was drinving today and dad asked me if I wanted to try again with him today but I said no and we should just do it another day. Today I am too pissed off to continue with this bullshit and I need to cool off. I didn't want to hear anymore about it from them but Mom stupidly knocks on my door for no other reason than to continue bugging me about going driving again when I had already said no. It was just really stupid and I told her to get out of my room and I locked her out. She's been napping ever since. God, I could kick my ass for even bringing up the idea of going driving with her when I should have known she was too tired and impatient to do it.
So, that was how my afternoon was. And now I need to study for my Biology test and find some info for an essay I'm doing in English.
Peace:)
The dinner at nie-nie's was good......at first. There were so many people there(most of them I had only met a few times in my life) and the minute we walked in the door everyone was about to say Grace. Kinda awkward. I ate but not alot. It's not like the food was horrible but not exactly what I was in the mood for. I feel guilty saying this because it's Thanksgiving, therefore I should be thankful. It was a little hard for me trying to feel comfortable with everyone else in the house because again, I barely know any of these people and they don't know me. I couldn't wait to leave, to be honest. I also needed to get in some time of driving since I hadn't in a week, so I asked mom if we could do that when we left and she said yes. God, how I wish I could turn back time and not have asked her. Mom was extremely short of patience today from having to work this morning and I should have noticed it earlier. We went driving around the back roads in nie-nie's niehborhood and it was truly an extremely irritating experiance. Mom had no patience with me whatsoever and would not stop bitching about what I was doing, which IMO, only made things worse. Yes, I often get too close to the side of the road because I don't think I should be driving in the middle of it. Mom kept panicking and trying to steer the wheel herself from the pasenger's seat over and over and OVER again and by the time we were finished, I was seething. So, we go back to nie-nie's house to pick up Zach and Mom tells me to go get him while she waits in the car, only making me more irritated. I go in and find Zach lying on Chris's bed watching some shit football game. I tell him that we need to go and he says hold on a minute I wanna watch this and I get pissed off and YELL at him that we need to go and mom is waiting outside. It never crossed my mind that there were alot of people in the living room and the kitchen who could hear everything I was saying. I made the biggest ass of myself and I should have apologized but I didn't. I just stormed out of the house without saying anything.
I go back to the car and Zach starts talking shit about me like he always does just for laughs and that makes me even MORE upset and as soon as we take off in the car, I brake down and start crying and I went striaght to my room when we got to the house and cried until mom told me to come out because she had told dad what Zach was doing in the car. Dad hugged me and asked me if Zach teasing me was the reason I was crying and I said no. I didn't want to talk about it. I just wanted to lock myself in my room and listen to Marah Carey until I felt better. Mom told dad that I was also upset because of what happened when I was drinving today and dad asked me if I wanted to try again with him today but I said no and we should just do it another day. Today I am too pissed off to continue with this bullshit and I need to cool off. I didn't want to hear anymore about it from them but Mom stupidly knocks on my door for no other reason than to continue bugging me about going driving again when I had already said no. It was just really stupid and I told her to get out of my room and I locked her out. She's been napping ever since. God, I could kick my ass for even bringing up the idea of going driving with her when I should have known she was too tired and impatient to do it.
So, that was how my afternoon was. And now I need to study for my Biology test and find some info for an essay I'm doing in English.
Peace:)
posted by SL @ 7:15 PM
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