I'm Back......again =/

I don't really have an answer as to why I decide to start updating my blog again, only to stop after a couple of months and take a long hiatus from it......and then start to miss it. Maybe I can stick to it this time, as my writing skills have improved over the past several months. It's very embarrassing looking back at my last posts before I stopped updating. I don't know why I let some of the stuff I was reading about/hearing at the time go to my head so much. Obviously I was going through a hard time emotionally. I don't know if it was just 16 year old crap or some mild form of depression or whatever. Thankfully, I'm dealing with such things better than I ever have and I hope I can continue to do that.

Normally, I'm terrible at coming out and plainly saying what's on my mind. It's extremely frustrating. But then I think that nobody will ever understand where I'm coming from anyway, so what would be the point?? I mean, I know for a fact that nobody could indentify with the things that I deal with on a daily basis. Nobody will ever understand how much I want to quit wasting so much of my emotional energy on shit that, for the most part, I know I shouldn't give a goddamn about. Maybe I should just fucking quit. Tell everyone else to fuck off and actually spend time with intelligent, supportive people in a stable, spam-controlled envirnment. Yes, I am speaking in internet terms. Seriously, why do I continue to put up with it?? It's only gotton worse, and I'm reaching the breaking point. I hope this isn't just my migrane talking because I should feel this way.

I should probably stop here. My head is killing me and I have hardly any energy to write anymore.

Love, Shiela